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CHAPTER 6
In the summer of 1997 Mariyana and Andrey have arrived on a visit to settlement the Pine. Andrey has suggested Mariyane to christen children in that church where him once christened. The mother-in-law has persuaded Mariyanu together with children to be christened. Family Mariyany was the believer (even the first daughter on a tomb does not have cross). Mariyana stood in church, in a scarf, and nearby there were two their sons. Andrey stood opposite and observed with pleasure of ritual. The hope that Mariyana at least will a little come nearer to belief, was at Andrey. Andrey honesty photographed the favourite. After the ritual termination, they have gone home. On arrival to settlement, all have sat down to table. Visitors congratulated again крещеных. Also celebrated a christening of children and Mariyany. After all visitors have left, Andrey and Mariyana have sat down on a sofa, and long were silent. The parrot has interrupted silence. The parrot began to say loudly a phrase so it is distinct and with expression: - Roofing felt of a trestle! Roofing felt of a trestle! Andrey with Mariyanoy began to look at it. The surprised Andrey, began to listen even more attentively. The parrot has repeated: - Roofing felt of a trestle! Roofing felt of a trestle, a trestle! Andrey at first has laughed, and then when has understood about whom speech, has confusedly looked on Mariyanu, after all so called her father. Mariyana with a silly smile looked on Andrey. Suddenly it is unexpected in a room artfully smiling mother-in-law has flown, and has covered a parrot with a rag. And to Andrey she has told: - Yes it so, a joke. I did not think, that it so will quickly remember. Who knew, that such capable parrot. And the smile on the person of the mother-in-law became same, as at Mariyany. Andrey attentively looked at the mother-in-law, and then when the mother-in-law left a room, began to look on Mariyanu. Mariyana has translated a sight from Andrey on a parrot, and Andrey has asked it. Is that such was? - A speaking parrot. - has answered confusedly Mariyana. - I have noticed it, but what he spoke? - He asked with interest it. - As though you did not hear. - all смущеннее answered Mariyana. - He has told: «Roofing felt of a trestle». Is mum it has learnt. - And Roofing felt it is your father. - has made the conclusion Andrey. - Everything, will suffice about it. - has asked Mariyana. - I represent, that you about me by an old age will speak. - upset Andrey has told. … In a week, in поселковой to school, the first was issued Mariyanin a class. It was their first teacher. Graduates stood in the street, and posed for the general photo. Mariyanu too have invited with all to be photographed. Then all teachers of school have gathered, and too were photographed. After a session photo all have come into an assembly hall. Andrey with Mariyanoy have sat down together with all. In a hall stood SHamanova and under music sounds spoke the sincere and shrill speech: - In a school window clouds look. Infinite it seems a lesson. Will fasten plumelets слега and lines lay down on a leaf. Does not repeat, does not repeat, does not repeat such never. Today for all of us day not the usual. For us teachers it very much is not usual, for we see results of our work. Parents are proud of the matured daughters and sons. School as much it has given to you children. Last time pay attention to these old, but such native walls. There is such science - bio-energetics. She speaks, there is a law at it such, and it says: «Those things which are very long time at the owner or the owner absorb that atmosphere where they were». You long, not one year, were owners of this school. The school has given you the core - knowledge. Not without reason, ancient wise men speak: « Knowledge is the base in a temple of a science, art. And the most important thing - humanity ». But on you will depend, that you will take out from walls of this school. As you will glorify it. As we will be, of you is proud. And the most important expert - a life will be the judge to you. The word is given to the principal. The principal has acted, it is a little being nervous, but a quiet natural voice. The director began to hand over certificates about full secondary education to children. Has there and then jumped SHamanova and the beginnings to it to help to distribute certificates. Mariyana looked at all that occurs in a hall, it is a little bending a mouth as if here all do not correctly. SHamanova has approached to a microphone, and continued the speech: - Over settlement twilight is condensed. Fires die away in houses. Stop unruly children's voices. And only in one window desk lamp light burns. It does not sleep, how you think who? The first teacher. It checks student's writing-books. Today gratitude words, we address low bow to the first teachers of our graduates. Andrey has not restrained and has commented on words SHamanovoy whisper on ear Mariyany: - I knew such teacher who changed the husband for school writing-books. So it has run away from it. And she spoke to all: «What it поддонок, I so loved it, and he has thrown me because of any writing-books». Mariyana has laughed, covering a mouth a hand. The graduate in the meantime has approached to a microphone, and has expressively told: - The teacher, the first teacher. How our way was far, in hands you will have threads. All our long journeys. And looking in blue open spaces. Through years, you as mum will call us by name always. Farewell our school, a native monastery, thanks you our first teacher. The girl has approached to Mariyane, and has presented to it a set of ware with colours. SHamanova took a microphone in hands, looking on Mariyanu, has told: - Mariyana Анатольевна, you do not wish to act? A little. Идемте here to us. Having invited Mariyanu, she declared all: - Mariyana Анатольевна has arrived from St.-Petersburg to us here to visit our final point. Mariyana with nervous arrogance has approached to a microphone and has told: - I without a microphone, am possible? Well I have certainly got here casually. I did not expect that I will meet you. For some reason it seemed to me, that you still finish only the tenth class. And when girls have come, it has appeared that at you already final. Has counted, it is valid you already big. Absolutely big. I certainly would not learn many. It was for a long time already, the whole four years. And for four years there were many above me. And have come absolutely, absolutely small. Well I wish to wish you. Now you while sit at the native school. But soon you leave, and before you there will be a huge field. And in this field each of you should choose the footpath. And I wish to wish, that on this footpath, to you was not neither what hummocks, nor what holes, and the wind was only passing. And always it blew to you only in a back. And on this track, you sit and think, of the friends, about school, and about parents which always to you helped, and will help. To in total you good. Can grow even more, it becomes even more beautiful. To in total you kind. Mariyana has broken a storm of applause, and villages near to Andrey. While schoolgirls sang a song. Andrey with a smile has asked Mariyanu: - A charm washing, you love gladioluses? - Yes, I love gladioluses. - has answered Mariyana, not understanding to what such question. - Then throw out these camomiles. - he has ordered Mariyane. Is not camomiles these are roses. - Having taken offence, has told Mariyana. Graduates have read verses in honour of teachers. Mariyana with the same nervous haughty person looked a school concert. Then they have gone home, discussing the final. For Mariyany all was as in a dream. Mariyana has spent, almost hour before a mirror, being amazed as her face for the last has strongly changed some hours. Everything, that it did, as it seemed to it, already happened with it earlier. These experiences amplified, when it peered into the wrinkles round the eyes, all it reached that the head started to be ill it strongly, and it there and then accepted a tablet. The period when Mariyana simply motionlessly laid in a bed also has begun. She did not speak, did not open an eye and did not give a sign, that somebody learns. She refused, is, only sometimes "nibbled" sunflower seeds. When Andrey took it for a hand and lifted it upwards, the hand remained in the lifted position. It was possible to bend her hand in a humeral and elbow joint, having given to it any position. When Mariyana left this condition from this condition and again started to speak. That she complained of people pursuing it. It took seat on a chair in an outer entrance hall, "nibbling" sunflower seeds, and thus told, that it the best teacher of the Penza area. All children who are, it its pupils. Any teacher cannot learn so children as it. Mariyana it was not similar to boys surrounding it and girls. She never with anybody was not on friendly terms on the present to anybody did not become attached. It was not close even to mother, she more it was afraid, than loved. When Mariyana entered any human relations mother counted at once, these mutual relations are how much favourable. It never expressed any active animosities or insult on mother. It was so неопытна in real human relations, that in rare instances when tried to approach with other person, all spoilt. At Mariyany practically there were no cases to learn on experience, to build correct human relations as children at normal parents study. As to the images constructed to it in relation to Andrey they have been resolutely deformed. Its dissatisfaction have so amplified, that won it. Its mentality completely mismatched a reality. Same year, since September, 1st Andrey was arranged with the master of inservice training, in professional school, under patronage Mariyany. Work liked it. The unique lack was one, Andrey had no experience and a pedagogical education. It had to study a new trade which was not from lungs. In 2000 in March. Andrey has taken part in competition of professional skill. It with the pupil has gone on competition. Andrey has learnt how to weld threw, and the director of school learnt welding theories. As always Mariyana during the difficult moment left the house, and this time was so. Having risen early in the morning, it has gone on competition. On road has met the pupil, they have together gone in a trolley bus. The mood at them was nervous, but both wished to win. Their desire to be the first prevailed over them, other way was not. To come back without a victory it in school it would not be desirable, and there would be it a shame. Having arrived, they were registered, as participants. Andrey encouraged the pupil as could. They have sat down in a class of expectation of the turn. In a class there was a TV with the videorecorder, and they began to look video. The pupil did not like a film, and he has demanded it to replace. Its request have executed. Through pair hours the turn of pupil Andrey has come. And it has gone to hand over to welding thorium. Andrey began to be nervous even more. When the pupil has returned, he has told: « Everything is all right ». Andrey has calmed down. An hour later have hung out results of theoretical competition. When Andrey has seen, that its pupil is on 14 place from 20 конкурсантов it simply"was stunned". He looked at the pupil, the pupil looked at it. And did not understand, how it has occurred. The hope of a victory has departured from them. They among themselves did not talk. At Andrey heart fought even more often, to it was badly morally. There has come time of practical competition. And its pupil has left in workshops. Andrey was in constant movement. He declared to all, that it has arrived behind the first place, sitting masters looked at it as on the sick person. Workshops left its pupil. And they began to wait for results of all competition. The nervous tension grew, and hopes of a victory any more were not. After a while have hung out the poster with results of all competition. And they have seen, that have won the second place. During this moment is happier, than Andrey was nobody not. Here it a victory, here it happiness. Masters of inservice training occupy prize-winning places, at competition having worked from 10 till 15 years, and many and in general never win. Andrey has managed to win the second place on the third year of work. Here where the present professionalism, and aspiration to a victory. Good luck has not turned away from it. And it together with the pupil has gone by a trolley bus home. Andrey has taken away a backpack with clothes and left near to school, and the pupil has gone further. It has come into school, has thrown a backpack in a workshop. Already who on work was not, and he has started wandering happy home. One saddened its happiness, it that wives were not at home. In couple of days Mariyana with children has come back home. Andrey to it has told about competition. When children have laid down to sleep. At them in the sleeping conversation has taken place: - Mariyana, what for you so do? What for to you it is show? - Andrey has asked Mariyanu a firm voice. - And you do not drink. - it is indifferent has told Mariyana. - I that drink much? - Has asked it is angry Andrey. - And you at all do not drink. - it is impudent, with arrival has told Mariyana. - Therefore you, even your lime girlfriends do not invite. - he has reproached Mariyanu. - Simply they do not celebrate, therefore and do not invite. - cut off Mariyana. - Yes you all life suffered inability to human contacts. You also did not love never whom. You for all year of our joint life have never told, that you love me. You all time closed, and with you are not present possibility to talk even about us. You not when did not consult from one of the problems, all time them is solved by someone for you. You in general can though in this life someone to love? Is my personal, and I am not obliged with you shares the thoughts. - she has spoken a monotonous voice. - Mariyana, I after all love you. At us with you two children. - it is nervous, with the big pressure Andrey has told. - And I was not present you. - It is indifferent she has told. - You when could not grow fond of any person. You simply go down stream, by different people, not showing any external feelings to these people. You suffer a lack of mental energy, and physical for a long time. Mariyana you are not capable to express the feelings normally. … there Has come summer. Andrey and Mariyana all have four together gone to settlement the Pine. There Andrey has appeared with children. Mariyana as always has emotionally disappeared, and the mother-in-law created a kind, that its all worries. Andrey during this period had a nervous breakdown, it was on a psychosis, created beforehand Mariyanoy. Here in settlement he has seen own feelings reflected from others, and he imagined, that it love or people, hardly its knowing or not knowing at all hate. He heard voices and had the visions confirming it спроецированные feeling. He feels pursued and usually hears, feelings confirming it. These voices, certainly, represent only other kind of a projection and reflexion: it its own thoughts stated to him. Thus he to some extent vaguely feels, that the scenario is written by him. Before arrival to settlement Andrey with Mariyanoy has discussed the cultural program on visiting of sight of Sosnovsky area. But not here, was, Mariyana mother has asked, that it has talked to Andrey what to go where it is not necessary. Mother Marjany has approached to Andrey and the beginnings in the form of an order to it to utter: - Andrey, it is not necessary where to go, have a good time here about the house. - And why? What bad if we walk? - With astonishment on the raised tone spoke Andrey. - Not that to go on settlement, especially Mariyana does not want. - And what Mariyana itself could not tell? Why you with me on this theme speak? - Andrey spoke with the mother-in-law already with a rage. The father-in-law has approached, and they have gone to look rabbits. The father-in-law has suggested to prepare in the evening from rabbits shish kebabs. Andrey has agreed. The father-in-law has prepared the rabbit meat for shish kebabs. And next day they on a kitchen garden have put a self-made brazier. Round it two sons and nephew Marjany have sat down. Andrey with the father-in-law was brought by fire wood. Have lighted fire wood in a brazier and waited when there will be coals. Children with impatience waited, when will be, shish kebabs prepare. The father-in-law has brought bread salt and many other things. Andrey began to prepare shish kebabs, turned about a brazier. And here, at last, shish kebabs were ready. Andrey has distributed shish kebabs to everyone. And all with pleasure have begun them is. After a while has appeared Mariyana and the mother-in-law, they have approached and have sat down near to all. Andrey has given to them on a shish kebab. All family was in gathering. On fresh air the ideal supper has turned out. While they there lived, Andrey thought out different entertainments with children. They went on stadium and there ran. They played football. They communicated much. After a while Andrey has got an easel and has started to write landscapes. Over and over again it changed the place and wrote landscapes under a different corner. Andrey has established on a glade an easel between houses and began to write the house of the father-in-law. All who passed by it looked on a canvas, and with an understanding kind departed. When the picture was ready, sister Marjany has asked that Andrey, has written also to it a picture of the native house. Andrey has suggested to take already ready picture. Sister Marjany with pleasure it took and has brought to the father. The father with the same pleasure has issued it in a framework. It was pleasant to all, that Andrey writes settlement the Pine. … cousin Marjany has on a visit come. He declared to it, that he wishes to collect schoolmates. And they together have gone all to invite. As a result they fixed time for gathering of all schoolmates that would will be defined where they will suit a holiday. Mariyana after gathering went on Andrey, its not confident gait, her face so was not familiar to Andrey, that Andrey was frightened. Mariyana has told to Andrey: - All schoolmates tomorrow gather, you go with me. - Where I will not go, I all the same there whom I do not know. They are your schoolmates, instead of mine - Andrey has sharply answered it. - I wish to go with you. I so have solved. - has exactingly told Mariyana. - And I do not want where to go. - Andrey has roughly told. Mariyana with the offended kind has left in the house. And Andrey remained in the street. Next day Andrey smoked as always on a bench. There was cousin Marjany, and they have greeted. Then the cousin has told: - At the bad wife, the husband always drinks. - What? I have not understood, to what it has been told? - The offended tone has asked its Andrey. - Mariyana has told, that you do not go, because you have fastened, and are afraid to break. - Grinning, its cousin has told. - Yes, well at you and родственнички. Andrey was developed and has gone to the house. It has laid down on a bed and upset has fallen asleep. Next day Mariyana has gone on a meeting with schoolmates. In the evening it has returned. Mariyana has started to tell, that there interesting was: - There was so interestingly, there were shish kebabs, wine and many other things. We grew grey also fur-trees, talked. - And where you were? - Us by cars have brought on a glade in wood, and there we suited a holiday. - told happy Mariyana. - And you are a lot of there have drunk? - Has asked with "jeer" Andrey. - You know, that I do not drink. - with pride has told Mariyana. - Can already learn was in time. - Laughing, spoke Andrey. - Faugh. - And what for you have told: «It does not go, because it has fastened to drink, and is afraid to break»? - Has asked with feeling of attention Andrey. - I such did not speak. - scaredly with running eyes has answered Mariyana. - So nevertheless who says lies? Your cousin or you? - Andrey asked, and looked in the face Mariyany. Mariyana has there and then jumped and has left from Andrey. Andrey long sat on one place. It sat and thought - as all it to regard. Andrey's all trouble was that he understood a reality, but constantly it drove away from itself that will not become angry to the world and not to descend сума. He wished to leave as soon as possible from these relatives Mariyany and people who constantly try to offend him. |
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